well. lotsa broken hearts over the past week.
kinda upset with both guys n girls. the heartbreakers.
lotsa peeps are outta love.
some struggle so hard just to stay in the game.
while some gave up and are looking for new games to be in.
and me? i dont know if im staying in the game,
or am i trying to look for new games to be in..
life recently just sucks. i dont know why.
so many tough things. so many problems.
i hate this period of my life. anyone help, please?
well. exams just ended today. but officially tomorrow.
cos will still be having mah art exam tomorrow.
and after art paper, going to kbox with the girls.
history today was easy. not very easy. but do-able.
dnt simply suck. gonna flunk it i guess.. but hope not.
as time pass.. im beginning to worry, to be afraid.
im sooo afraid that i'll be so alone.
he left, yet i did nothing about it.
you said i tried so hard to look at the bright side of life..
but what do you know about the life im leading now?
you dont even have the slightest hint.
and so you say im trying? yes i am. i dont deny.
you know how hard is it for me to stand on my 2 feets?
you know how tough is it for me to be all alone? maybe you dont.
he said he needa some freedom.
then why did he deprived mine at first?
i dont deny that after he left, i felt much much better.
its like a whole blocks of bricks are removed from my shoulders.
i feel better, im happier. maybe not bcos of his disappearance.
but bcos.. im all alone again, im who i once used to be.
at times, i just so very much wanna cry.
but somehow i knew i couldnt.
i fought very hard to survive through the close to 1 1/2 yrs.
all the quarrels, fights and everything you could name.
the happy memories will never be forgotten.
they'd be buried deep down in my heart.
the unhappy thought will all be washed away.
even the day you walked away.
i wan my life to have nothing but happiness.
now im all alone, i'll find my happiness with my bare hands.
i have no idea what meaning i'd wanna put across.
but somehow i think you'd leave like other guys.
never coming back to find me anymore..
somehow, my heart is telling me to give up.
cos it sees no hope, feels no hope.
the faith in u that u'd come back,
just fades away with the passing day.
maybe the day i wash you outta my mind..
will be some days in the near future.
maybe we're just not meant to be together...
maybe this is our fate..
maybe being with u is defying God's orders.
maybe being together is and has been a big mistake.
maybe separating will bring happiness to us..
maybe i should just turn my head and never look back~
feeling terrible. since the day our r/s ended, i hadnt cry.
till just yesterday, i felt so upset, broke down.
and cried walking alone in the streets at night.
it was scary. the roads were dark and cold.
so much i want you to be there to hold my hand,
telling me everything's gonna be alright.
the more i try to find you, the further you're away.
is this how our relationship's gonna end?
sometimes i just have to blame myself for falling in love with you.
for why must i choose you over willie..
for why must i want to get close to you..
sometimes, just sometimes.....
in the background of anywhere,
i'd hear you telling me you'll be there for me always,
till death do us part...
i made myself believed that stupidly, and feeling hurt now.
no matter how badly insulted, i still never forgets ur love for me.
and up till today, you still come across my mind outta nowhere,
telling me to wait for you..
can i believe that? i ask myself...
this two days, i've been asking myself over n over again..
to wait for you or to give you up?
i dont know. i really dont.. sometimes it just hurts so much.
i break down and cry. shedding tears may be stupid.
but there's no other ways i can go about doing things.
the question now still is to wait for you, or to let you go..
i hope you can think things through soon.
and tell me soon.. maybe sometime apart would do us good.
do think things through.. i'll be waiting...
gonna take a bath, a loooooooong one before dressing up.
im going for job interview. dont ask me where. its disgracing-
laughoutlouds. not actually. its im lovin' it. got it? mac, if you dont.
disgracing, aint it? hahas.. well. ending this with.....
mr li sheng jie's yuan zou gao fei -
ai ni cuo le ma? wei shen me hui shou dao na me duo cheng fa.
ta men shuo de hua, xiang zhen wang xin li cha.
wo xin zhong de pa. bu zhi zen me zuo cai neng gou fang xia.
zhi bu guo xiang hao hao de ai yi ci ah~
dai wo yuan zou gao fei. bu qu li hui.
zhe yi ge fei duan liu chang de shi jie pu man xu wei.
shi ni rang wo xuan ze chen zui. fan xin shou hou yue bu neng shui.
zhi yin wei ai shang le ye de hei.
dai wo yuan zou gao fei. yi qi qu zhui.
you yi ge jiao zuo xing fu de shi jie mei you lei shui.
wo yi jing gan jue dao pi lei. zhi xiang zai ni huai bao ru shui.
bu zai hu bie ren yan zhong shi fei.
chong xin zai chu fa. neng bu neng rang zhe tian di bu zai chao zha.
wo de xin li mian an jing de bu xiang hua.
gu shi de zhen jia. mei you duo yu de li qi qu fen bian ta.
zhi bu guo xiang hao hao de ai yi ci ah~
dai wo yuan zou gao fei. bu qu li hui.
zhe yi ge fei duan liu chang de shi jie pu man xu wei.
shi ni rang wo xuan ze chen zui. fan xin shou hou yue bu neng shui.
zhi yin wei ai shang le ye de hei.
dai wo yuan zou gao fei. yi qi qu zhui.
you yi ge jiao zuo xing fu de shi jie mei you lei shui.
wo yi jing gan jue dao pi lei. zhi xiang zai ni huai bao ru shui.
bu zai hu bie ren yan zhong shi fei.
dai wo yuan zou gao fei. bu qu li hui.
zhe yi ge fei duan liu chang de shi jie pu man xu wei.
shi ni rang wo xuan ze chen zui. fan xin shou hou yue bu neng shui.
zhi yin wei ai shang le ye de hei.
dai wo yuan zou gao fei. yi qi qu zhui.
you yi ge jiao zuo xing fu de shi jie mei you lei shui.
wo yi jing gan jue dao pi lei. zhi xiang zai ni huai bao ru shui.
bu zai hu bie ren yan zhong shi fei.
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